My New Year's Resolution

Is to forget about him and all his trash.  So, this is hopefully the last post regarding him.

It's kind of like taking out the trash before I go out.

I'm going to take over the world

I'm going to go for a ride today to test how far along my healing is.  Then I will sit around, play video games and read comic books because I'm on vacation until Monday.

Not listening.

If I am playing video games, your requests fall on deaf ears.

Talking to my dad and my belly.

The math may or may not make sense here.  I didn't care to check it.

Yeah, so I lost 30 pounds since September.  I recently noticed that my bras don't fit anymore.  Although it is nice to see that my blouses are loose.  My butt is still big so I'm still wearing the same pant size.

Insults, my dog, and one of my biggest fears

It's kind of insulting when I get those questions. I'm a girl and I like video games, is that so hard to believe?

Leela is a noisy sleeper.

I've had nightmares.

Positive and Negative

I love how Cira reassures me when I doubt myself.

My team had a game last weekend.  I managed because I can't skate.

Merry Christmas

All of my parents' grandchildren have four legs and fur.  Merry Christmas!

It's Christmas Eve

I'm busy so you're getting these early.

If you don't get it, you need to watch more Muppets.

Let's get specific

I missed him but then I remembered that I was unhappy with him. These are the reasons I was unhappy.  If I look at them out of context and don't think about the personal attachment I have to these, I think they are kind of funny. All of these happened on multiple occasions.

I wanted to play music again. I still want to but I hear his voice in my head when I start looking at instruments. I wasn't looking to be famous, I just wanted to have some fun and make friends. That's just one example of the awesome things I wanted to do.

In public, he was a caring partner.  He would hold a conversation, tell me that he loved me, and hold my hand when other girls checked him out. At home, all he would say is "meh."

This one happened quite often. At first I think he told me to make me jealous, but then the stories got more detailed and pushed further, to the point where he told me if I weren't around he would have gone for it.

It's was hard to believe him when he told me he loved me and I am beautiful when he acted like he didn't want me around.

I'll be talking to a friend and I will say something so negative about myself.  I didn't used to act this way. I thought about it and found the cause.  He's gone now, but he is still affecting the way I think and act.  I have started to force myself to see things in a positive light. I'm hot, I'm smart and I can do anything I want to.  I'm just going to keep saying that until I believe it.

Edit: These are a little exaggerated to get the point across, except for the Possessive one that one is straight up true, just paraphrased to make it apply to all of the conversations we had in that category.

Christmas Wish List

I want my body to let me sleep in past 8:00 am without being hungover.

I need a rifle, lots of ammunition, a chainsaw, and a really cute outfit for the impending zombie apocalypse.

Merry Christmas!

Woe for me Monday

Without any further explanation, these drawings are pretty depressing. I just want to let you know that I made them to remind me why it is over, why I decided to leave.  I feel a sting when I look at them.  I hope that, later, I'll be able to look at them and really believe them.

Edit: Now that I've shared these, I feel a lot better.  It's like talking to someone about it and being comforted.  Even though people might not even see this.

Poop, boys and video games

There is a prerequisite to try to date me.  You must think the Zelda series is awesome.

If I could grow a mustache...

I would name it Earl and brush it everyday.

I hate finding out that they are married.  Keep your hands out of your pockets, I need to see if there is a ring or not.

Going to a party tonight.

I hope my plan works.

I currently have vegan friendly cupcakes in the oven.

I'm late

I'm posting rather late today because I was too busy being super awesome.

I'm thinking about coloring my hair back to dark.  If I did, the second version would be how I depict myself from now on.

Dinosaurs and guacamole

This is what I go through when I make guacamole.  You should appreciate your Taco Tuesday more.

Random Tuesday drawings!

Spew!

I can't hold it in any longer! I must share my drawings! I have so much freaking energy. If I could bounce I would be bouncing off the walls. Instead I will just sit here and fidget and twitch.

Introducing Cirabird.

Woot! No surgery, but I will not be skating again for a few weeks.

I have an appointment at 3:45 pm to learn the results of the MRI. Let's hope that the next doodle I make is one about me being completely ok and only needing to wear a knee brace for another week or two. Although, I will still be whining about the doctor bills.

Season's Greetings!

hmmm what to post today

I have quite a few of these saved up from a few days of feeling really inspired. I'm going to go with the random ones.

LEEEEEEEELLLLAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!

I looked at what I posted earlier and see nothing but anger and sadness. I'm not that bad. I can has happy!

ouch

Drawing these made me feel so much better.

Three dudes spoke to me last night and these were their opening lines. I wish I would have talked to the guy with the mustache more. I'm really shy and awkward.

I love you Nicosaurus. Best imaginary friend ever.

My heart was still mending and you suck.

And that was my night. I also stayed up until 5am when I usually go to sleep by 10pm. I woke up half and hour ago and it's almost 9am if you aren't looking at the time stamp. I don't know why I stayed up so late. I busted out all these drawings in less than an hour.

Edit: I took one picture down because I think it's best if I would have kept that private. If you already saw it, good for you. If you didn't, well that's too bad.